a truthful contradiction

you must be smart,
to play dumb.

Today...

I will bond with others, knowing that the other is myself in disguise;
As light and shadow are the dance of love.

intrapsychic quest I am currently embarking on

"I died as a mineral and became a plant.
I died as plant and rose to animal.
I died as animal and I was Man.
Why should I fear? When was I less by dying?
Yet once more I shall die as Man, to soar
With angels bless'd; but even from angelhood
I must pass on: all except God does perish.
When I have sacrificed my angel-soul,
I shall become what no mind ever conceived.
Oh, let me not exist! for non-existence
proclaims in organ tones,
to him we shall return."
~Rumi

261

bodies taken in silence
manipulated penetrations
followed by
unconscious barriers
that facilitate
voices unheard

it was
just you and i
alone

reflected
in distortions of power
and impulsivity
all of which
tore through
me

i expected
what was dictated
i respected
what was protected

but i was pushed
into the darkness
with the only sight available
to my senses
being
a shadow
of swirling stars
dancing
as the saturday
that was once a friday
unbuckled the belt
which ignored my premeditated cries

yanked pants
as dark as the sky
and my closed eyes

were taken

until my scream
awoke
yr selfish desires

facilitating the
apologies
faults
fears that
enveloped your mind
and the downgrading of bloody occurances.

i wish that i could tell you
him
her
they
we

so yr secret
yr denial
could no longer be

but the battle of versus
will overide
justice

i stare at the window
expecting
a breath
granted only by a sunrise of
forgotten traumas
embedded within the
intrapsychic

but i know
that it will fail
just as the internal peace
i held within me
has ceased to exist.

-jenn

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food for thought

A man is taken to hell and witnesses a scene where the sinners are sat around an enormous table served with delicious, appetizing dishes. They are only allowed to eat the food with chopsticks that are two feet long, so the sinners are forever hungry, as it is impossible to eat with chopsticks that long. The man is then taken to heaven, where he witnesses the exact same scene. The table in heaven is also full tasty food and the pure souls, too, have only the gigantic chopsticks to consume the food; yet, they are always full.

The reason they are satiated is because they are feeding each other.