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bodies taken in silence
manipulated penetrations
followed by
unconscious barriers
that facilitate
voices unheard

it was
just you and i
alone

reflected
in distortions of power
and impulsivity
all of which
tore through
me

i expected
what was dictated
i respected
what was protected

but i was pushed
into the darkness
with the only sight available
to my senses
being
a shadow
of swirling stars
dancing
as the saturday
that was once a friday
unbuckled the belt
which ignored my premeditated cries

yanked pants
as dark as the sky
and my closed eyes

were taken

until my scream
awoke
yr selfish desires

facilitating the
apologies
faults
fears that
enveloped your mind
and the downgrading of bloody occurances.

i wish that i could tell you
him
her
they
we

so yr secret
yr denial
could no longer be

but the battle of versus
will overide
justice

i stare at the window
expecting
a breath
granted only by a sunrise of
forgotten traumas
embedded within the
intrapsychic

but i know
that it will fail
just as the internal peace
i held within me
has ceased to exist.

-jenn

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