Hello, my name is Jenn, and I am a runaway bride.

It is always good to keep in mind those lessons that we have learned the hard way.

In this case, a lesson came to me twice in the past, of which the Universe dictated: Individuals are not static.

My Buddhist lesson last week, also asked that we reflect on ourselves, whenever we are experiencing conflict.

Keeping in mind that individuals and situations are constantly open for change, in conjunction with my Buddhist reflection- I have chosen to respect my partner's happiness, and freedom, just as much as I respect and am entitled to that of my own.

I made a promise to myself, when it comes to dating and relationships: The instant I sense shadiness, drama, or feel that the other is approaching me with games-- the tie between us both will automatically be cut. I am a no nonsense female, and I refuse to tolerate inappropriate behaviors or undergo unnecessary stress. I always advise my partners of the fine print, especially the part that says: "If you disrespect me in any way-- I am out, with no explanations... and your existence will cease from my memory."

It is unfortunate, that I have to invoke, what I call, The Discretionary Advisement; however, the number of red flags has exceeded the limit (1). I forgive my partner, for what he has done (although, I don't feel comprehends the consequences of his actions), but I understand the psychology behind it, specifically, the fact that narcissism indicates a diminished self worth, which then, subconsciously causes individuals to behave inappropriately. Although, I understand that his actions were not a result of negative thought forms, as what he did to me, was not created out of ill will; I still feel that it would be wrong to proceed in a life long commitment with someone who still needs to discover himself.

I also do not want to constantly engage with an individual, who will disrupt the achievement of an equilibrium state of mind. I am not asking that my partner become a mental health specialist, nor do I want to be utilizing therapeutic techniques; all I am requesting is to be with someone who will put me first, just as I put them first-- as well as having someone who will provide a lending ear, or any form of compassionate response, when needed-- just as I would do the same.

It is all about maintaining duality at it's most divine state.

I really wish my partner the best, and I hope that he realizes, at his own time of course, that he is a beautiful person beneath. I really hope that this understanding sets him free from what binds him (at this moment he believes there is clarity; however, there is much work needed), as it is only then, that he will truly acquire the mental frame of mind and existence he deserves: Utopia.

I feel very sad, that I must make the decision to part; however, this individual is not the one for me, as visions, intuition and reality have all confirmed their presence, and most importantly- their purpose.

It is also unfortunate that I must dissipate-- become evanscent without acknowledgement; however, I informed him from the very beginning, the circumstances in which it would occur-- therefore, my response, is well deserved.

I must honor what is,
and allow things to just be.


[Proceeding.]